Grow

Something more inside of me,

something I don’t even know.

It’s there and brewing, slowly,

I feel and yearn to know.

What is it that we are here for?
What is the great big race?

Is there a prize at the end of the line,

or is it all just time and space?

I’m often pondering what’s this purpose,

and even more trying to see.
This one great life you’ve given me,

am I doing all that you please?

My heart is big, my mind stands tall

and I wait to know the truth.

Something inside of me, is certainly starting to grow.

Come Alive

When is the last time you did something that truly made you happy?

When did you last lose all track of time?

What makes you put your phone down and forget all about it?

What was your favorite ice cream flavor as a kid?

What did you most look forward to in the hot Summer months?

What do you crave more than anything in the world?

When’s the last time you did something for someone who could no longer pay you back?

When did you last thank God (the universe, whomever) for all that you have?

How long ago did you laugh so hard you cried?

What speaks to you in ways that it’s so hard to put into words?

Do those things.  Feel those things. Be those things.

Bring back your joy, feel your youth and let yourself come alive.

Memories

I want to capture every moment, but then I drive myself insane.

Each and every second, could be a memory.

These ages are so magical, and in my heart I find,

it’s hard to not go crazy trying to not leave it all behind.

No more bottles, babies, toddlers,

No more diapers, cribs or strollers.

No more wearing you and waking in the middle of your slumber.

 

You’re able to ride your big bicycles, smiling your silly little grins.

 

You play in nature and let nothing bother you, and try to capture every creature.

The two of you are best of friends and it makes us oh, so proud.

Can I keep you these ages forever?  Or at least for a little while longer?

Silly, goofy, crazy.

You are both all of the above.

We never thought we could love anyone more, and then you both came along.

Please let this Summer hold a beautiful story.

I cannot wait to share it with you, and yet I can wait to see.

Summer 2019 will hold the

most

perfect

memories. 

Quote for Tuesday

I know that I tend to think, overthink, re-think, worry, and so forth.  It’s not fun, it’s a waste of time (and energy) and often whatever is running non-stop through my head, doesn’t even happen!! Maybe it is the enemy trying to mess with me, or maybe I’m just a little crazy.  Either way, I am working on these thoughts that make me mad, sad, depressed, frustrated, negative (aka my INNER MEAN GIRL) and making them go away more regularly.

One tool that Lindsay has taught me (that I used to do before I met Joe more frequently) was write in a journal.  Since starting this habit back up, so much comes out of my mind, onto paper and my heart is lifted and lighter.  I am not where I want to be yet, but I know I am well on my way there.

This quote felt fitting for today.  Stop the madness– you are amazing, wonderful and unstoppable! Don’t forget it.

Oprah.com

Maybe you Need to Read this…

Maybe you’ve been having some bad luck.

Maybe you’ve been told you can’t.

Maybe you’re holding onto some unknown belief or fear you haven’t tapped into you.

Maybe you think you’re not good enough.

Maybe you think you’re going to lose, fail or be made fun of.

I am here to tell you today that–

You are stronger than you think.

You are wiser than you know.

You are capable of so much more than you believe.

The sky is the limit, your mind will achieve what you tell it to.

Both of your bad days and good happen for a reason.

May your past be a lesson; learn from it well.

You don’t have to let the cycle repeat.

Every day is a new day to start fresh.

You don’t need anyone or anything to make you happy.

There’s a time to hustle, but also a time to rest.

You are worthy.

Your dreams, your passions, your desires–do not go to the grave with them still inside.

If you love to write, start a blog.

If you love to dance, join a class.

If you love to sing, buy a microphone and blare those speakers!

If you love people, become more involved.

If you love to cook, get in that kitchen!!

So often we allow ourselves to get bogged down by the “shoulds” of the world, or the crazy endless activities of things we “have to do.”

If I  feel like I’m sinking, that’s when I’ve learned I must retreat.  I must go find a quiet spot, which is hard, and I need to really listen to that still small voice inside me.  Perhaps it’s God, maybe it’s the universe, maybe I’m a little crazy and I just hear voices.

But seriously, last week when I was so overwhelmed with emotion, frustration and felt like I was losing control, I just got into my truck and drove, in the rain and parked.  I had on The Coffee House station on XM radio and it played all the right songs.  I felt like they had handpicked music to go along with my current feels.

I cried.

It rained, it really poured.

It felt so good to get that out…and to just think! Alone!

What do I need?

What do I want? 

What is my purpose?

And within a day, I actually discovered Trent Shelton whom I felt also spoke to me and he said, “You are purpose.”

We have such a small chance of even being put onto this earth, so that alone should give you enough purpose.

So many of us are just floating around with these amazing gifts, talents and beautiful parts of us that no one sees!!

We are scared.

We are afraid of what others may think, or say.

We can come up with a million and one reasons why we shouldn’t, couldn’t or won’t…

But friend, you must step away from that mindset and free yourself.

Put your words out there, regardless of what someone may say to you.

Upload your video to share your story, so that someone else may not feel alone.

Do not let the world (or rather the people in it) keep you from what you are meant to be or do.

Chances are, they’re hurting too and also need to read this.

Shine on, sweet friend…shine on and rise to your occasion!