In the midst of two very special birthdays, coming off of Christmas and well into the New Year, I finally find a minute to breathe.
It’s within these stolen moments where I can reflect on, count, and re-count my blessings. Sometimes life doesn’t go the way we intended it to; in fact, it doesn’t go the way we in which we planned at all.
I’m learning to lean deeper into surrendering and to focus on the now, the present, the little bit I can control and letting go of all the things I don’t.
This New Year has been nothing short of intense, painful and quite life-altering. It’s been hard, unfair and there have been more tears than smiles.
This too shall pass.
I believe there is a bigger picture, a plan in place and I have no choice but to let go and let God.
If you’re looking for comfort, then do what it is that gives you that feeling. Life is short, and so uncertain. If there is one thing I keep coming back to in these brief 16 days of 2019, it’s to embrace what we are given, with the people we have in our lives.
I’ve begun a small journey with a new devotional, 100 Days to Brave. I’ll admit I was so angry at the words I was reading and literally said to myself, “You are far from brave. You are so not brave it’s not even funny…” and then I cried. After a few moments of stumbling through my own in-coherent thoughts I thought about what I needed most in my life. And then I acted on that thought.
And you know what dear reader? That made me brave. Acting in the face of fear, no matter how small, makes you courageous. You do not have to go fight an actual battle to be considered brave, but you do have to figure out your next right move, (thank you Oprah) and have the desire to change. Put one foot in front of the other. For me it was reaching out to a friend whom I hadn’t seen or really spoken to in quite some time. It was asking for help. It was stepping down from “trying to do all things alone because that is what bravery is.”
Being brave is doing the thing you didn’t really want to do, but that still small voice inside of you won’t be quiet and so you must act.
Do the thing, and you will have the power. — Emerson.
The universe has my back, and I am highly attune to all the small things. Rachel Hollis said on her live video with her husband yesterday something that made me stop dead in my tracks.
She said that it’s not going to get easy. If you think for a second if you just work really hard and then one day poof you’ll be flying high with no cares or worries, you’re sorely mistaken. (I know I’m improvising her words, but still the same meaning is there…) essentially we are all going to have struggles and stumble. Through sickness and in health marriage will be hard work, babies will be hard work and living a beautiful and meaningful life will be hard work.
Just don’t quit. You can fail. You can rest. You can do whatever you need to do temporarily, but the moment you give up? That’s where it ends.
So while I may have a few obstacles to overcome in life, no one and nothing will stop me from going on. I know that there will be so much good after so much pain. Without rain, we’d have no flowers.
What helps me be brave?
- Reading inspirational books
- Talking to people who understand me
- Acting even if I’m scared
- Trusting God